しんよう Xin Yong

I don't even how to make her relief !
I'm sucks !! She said i'm a FAKE one.
First, she said no one knows the relationship of 2 of us.
I declared our relationship to all of my friend, my band members.
and I put her picture on my friendster account to declare to every one that she is my girl friend. Everyone knows she is my girlfriend.
I called a international phonecall to her from M'sia to Japan and let her listen to my voice during when i were performing on the Jrock Kingdom IV . its about 30 mins.
I shouted her name on the live performance : Mei ! Aishiteru n dayo !
This video can proves everything : Click Here

Why still i can't get her trust ???
Anyone teach me what can I do else ?

She doesn't trust a thing that i said .
I spend all my times,
I always tried my best to make her happy,
make her become stronger & optimism.
But whatever i did, she deny it.
I was suffering ,
suffering bout WHY I CAN'T EVEN LET HER STAY RELIEF!
I'm very happy to be with her because there LOVE between us.
But ... she just can't trust me. I'm wondering , does she loves me ??

My Suffer , My Sorrow , My Emptyness...

To my friends and Blog reader, Please don't ask any question about this post. I just wanna spit out what i kept in my heart for so long.